Tuesday, September 29, 2009

umm... this hit home. hard.

Pete Wilson, Pastor of Cross Point Church in Nashville, posted this on his blog today...  It really convicted me.  These words could easily be my own.

Now I’m not saying I don’t pray or I don’t enjoy prayer. I’m not saying I don’t understand it or I need help understanding why we pray. I’m just saying I stink at prayer and my prayer life is not where I want it to be.

The painful thing is what my weak prayer life says about me. Here’s the ugly truth. My lack of prayer proves…

I underestimate the power of prayer and overestimate my own ability.

I’m not really as hungry for the intimacy with God I so regularly publicly declare as a desire of my heart.

While I would like to know God’s will for my life I’m clearly more committed to my will, my plans and my agenda.

I’ve bought into the illusion that there are more important things to do than spending time with the creator of the universe.

I’ve reduced prayer to a list of things I think I want or need and I currently don’t need to “use” God for anything.

I can't even say anything else.  I need to really meditate on this for a while...

I've gotta fix my prayer life. 

Only with His help.

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